DAILYLIFE

About a kind of relationship problems

以下是喝完这三瓶最爱的黑啤之后的对感情方面的想法。就不用英文来说了，英语实在是太难了。

先说起黑啤成为我最喜欢的饮料都原因吧。我妈前两天说出了我一直在想，一直觉得不可思议的一件事，她说她怎么也没想到我会在这个年纪做出这种决定，最后还成功了。确实这是一段非常非常，不可思议的一件事。甚至在我踏出国门的前一年，在当是在职场奋斗的年纪，我竟然选择了这种类似懦夫的逃避的方法，最后还真让我得逞了。黑啤刚喝第一口，甚至第一瓶的时候，苦的口感是由心而发的。

这次闲话是关于男女感情。在这二十多年里，我确信了那些我曾喜欢过的女孩的出现，确信了那些不经意就能想起的或是甜蜜或事悲伤的事的存在，确信了我的过往中的多情。

而对于现在，我更像是一个明明有了指引却始终无法到达海滩的船，那光太亮，太理想。

在这一年里，我并没有和太多人来往，而仅有的几个异性最后也鲜有联系。我一直坚信世界上有个人与我一样，一直在静候我的到来。

一年前，我并不会为这些事情苦恼，那时有理想，有憧憬。但我可能并没有想到家人对这件事的期望。这是一件极为矛盾的事情，所谓幸福，我想让我的家人看到幸福，但我也害怕为此所带来的不幸福。毕竟不幸福的最后只能由自己一人承担。

所以对于现在的我在苦恼这件事的同时也在惊讶为何我会因此而感到苦恼。难道不是应该担心马上开始的hackathon，担心接下来的工作规划，担心剩下的人生旅程吗？不过说到底，人生的旅程谁都不希望能孤独走完。

对于感情，如果能排序的话，这件事比从事管理更难。我得不到任何明确地指引，相反地确让自己花尽心思地猜忌。试探和无所畏惧最终换来的结果都是不可预测的，而可能不经意间的举动却能带来前所未有的收获。总之，努力这个词并不适合这件事。

不过还是希望能遇到那个同样一直在静候我的人吧，希望你们也是 🙂

About my impression of English education in China

This was a serious question for me how to use ‘though’ or ‘then’ at the end of a sentence.

Cos all of my English teachers did not teach me about it before. You can see that at least in the period of my studying in China, the education system, the schools and the society did not pay more attention to improving students’ oral English skills. I can remember that before I attended my college, there was only one very odd method to do oral English practice, which was reading the English articles, together, in almost every morning. And the teachers always mainly focus on teaching English words, grammar and even the skills for answering questions of exams. Cos there is a very important exam series happens every year and the English exam only consists of listening, reading and writing, NO SPEAKING. Of course, every student would like to have a high score, so speaking? how cares. Even in my college academic life, every English exam has the same situations. Until I was preparing the IELTS exam, I found that it was so difficult for me to speak English. Maybe it was my fault, I did not study hard, while the English teaching style in China was definitely wrong, even if there are several reasons which lead to this result I could understand.

Anyway, now I can grasp that

though: however

then: therefore

when they are placed at the end of a sentence.

E.g. I really like living in Xiamen; there are so few opportunities to find a profitable job there though.

Reference

http://www.bbc.co.uk/worldservice/learningenglish/radio/specials/1535_questionanswer/page29.shtml

CampDigital 2019

I have to admit that the foreign educational environment offers many opportunities to engage with professional activities. Camp Digital is an inspirational conference that brings together the digital, design and UX communities for a series of seminars exploring the latest thinking in our industry. #2019/06/12

In my previous work, I was not a coder but also engaged in application design including functions, UI and UX. But actually I am not professional enough to do these work cos I only rely on my experience and personal thinking. Fortunately, it’s not bad. So I am really interested in this area. In my opinion, these are the work of art in IT. Wonderful!

The first topic for this event is quite interesting. Taking the US election method as an example, some election questionnaires and methods were compared. Actually, I am not familiar with the election. AND DON’T ASK THE REASON LOL. However, it can be understood that the more products or services the user is facing, the more complex factors are considered in the design. So the most critical, or the only thing that can be done, is to meet the needs of most stakeholders. For example, when an election is held in a country where almost half of the citizens are not good at reading, the questionnaire is full of massive words is not a sensible design.

The contents of the morning were very interesting. The second one mentioned the products of Disney. But the most impressive idea for me is: DO NOT THINK WHY IT FAILED, BUT WHAT CAN DO NEXT. This is actually very easy to understand the empirical theory, but in many cases, it will always focus on how to find reasons for failure. After all, failure will bring losses, and doing so may bring some comfort. BUT the next is always more important.

When I had lunch, I met a girl who looked young but already working. This was a free lunch! She is engaged in UX research at a consulting firm. Unlike my country, in the UK, there are many IT consulting companies. I also discuss this phenomenon with my tutor before. In my opinion, the reason why IT consulting companies are not popular in China is the situations of the progress of each industry. IT itself is a service industry and it can help other industries improve producing efficiency and innovation progress. So comparing with the situations of industries in these two countries, it’s more long-standing and stable in the UK while it’s developing at a rapid pace in China. Now, this is the stage of the rapid development of the IT industry, so the way to directly combine the main business with IT is to comply with this trend. By contrast, in the UK, professional companies are more trustworthy.

Unfortunately, I was too tired to attend all the seminar in the afternoon. But this was a really excellent and impressive experience for me!

About Avengers Endgame

This is quite late actually, I was busy in my study, my anxiety and my life. But there is no doubt this is a special period of my life. After those busy days, I had a time to watch this movie finally. No pic, No details, just tear.

When I was a undergraduate student, the first movie of Marvel, Iron Man, was on. I was curious because of his because of his handsome face, his all boys dream of steel armor. At that time, I was like tony, regardless of the life. I felt that no one in this world can understand me, and no one can feel my troubles. My distance from my father was so far away, my dreams with me was so far away. During these 11 years, I have forgotten those who watched the Marvel movie with me, Iron Man, Captain America, Spiderman, Ant Man, Avengers. Dazzling, all passed.

I am so touched by this movie. After it, I told my fiend that I was crying several time during it. She said She said that she was also touched by the scene of the gathering of all the characters. But for me, it’s because the deep feeling of my life from the deep heart. I recalled that when I watched Iron Man for the first time in 2008 which he said “I am Iron Man”. These eleven years are like flying through the gaps, so I can’t believe that time is so ruthless, so that I can’t completely remember everything that happened during this time. Util he said it again with his gone. I hate that I have forgotten the pain and happiness I have experienced in these years, but I am happy for every unexpected experience I have experienced.

After that movie, I talked with my friends about the detailed story of it. They said they were all crying at that time. I believe there is a superhero dream in the heart of every boy. We wanna become a superhero to save the world, we wanna everyone can remember us. But on the road to growth, we lack ourselves to lose these dreams again and again. I am so sorry for my friends who are sincere, my families who really care for me, my lovers who put me in their heart. I am so sorry.

Like I said, I am not a boy any more. There is a tough way that I have to go. And there is not a life I expected. The only thing I can do is try my best to get it instead of hating it. For the tomorrow, for the future. I drunk three bottles of beers, and I will try my best to love you three throunds.

25th Feb. 2019

The weather in Manchester is really excellent recently, while I hear that there is always raining in most coastal cities in my country. And this is my first diary in this blog because one of my best friends asked me to write down what I thought and what happened today.

My Recent Situation

This is the first time that I have not been with my families to celebrate the Chinese Spring Festival. Before the end of the previous year, I ended all the content of the first semester, including the exam; completed the release of the test version of the application I was responsible for. In short, there have been many happy and sorrowful things in 2018. And recently, I thought I would have a better academic life in the new semester, but I was wrong. Actually, I do not have too many course units now, while I still feel pretty stressful because of mindfulness for concentration and perfectionism. In addition to the course study, I also need to start preparing for my project of the master’s degree, applying for a job and planning a new idea that has just emerged today — self-employment.

Venture

I should thank two of my classmates who had dinner with me today. In the chat after that, a very interesting idea suddenly appeared in my mind. This made me thought seriously about how to make the idea become a real business all night which I had no idea before, especially in a foreign country. Because self-employment sounds like a very big challenge for me and I don’t think I can consider all aspects well and plan well and execute well. But I think the reason why I was diffident is there are no concrete ideas and clear goals in my mind before today.

The first thing I can think of was to verify the feasibility of this idea. My initial plan is to set up the business in the UK instead of China because of the market and environment. Of course, I cannot handle it along in order to various factors and industries it relevant. Moreover, I can clearly know that no reward would be got until making it become real. Even if I can approve it’s very beneficial to do business based on this idea, I still need to do some survey, analyse data and write business plan to treat this behaviour as a venture. There is still a long way to go.

So for now, there are several key points I have to do or to address next showed the Eisenhower Decision Matrix.

Aim in Mind

The first people I can think of that he/she can help me perhaps is one of my teammates in the previous coursework group. He has got his bachelor’s degree in the US and he is studying in MBS now. That’s quite good because of his English skills, thinking patterns and also study background, even if no work experience. After around 1hour talking, he told me that he still insists to work in China after graduating with a very clear aim. On the other hand, my other good friend has been hesitating to choose where to earn a PhD. Because of the programme she is studying, studying for a PhD degree is a very good choice. But for various reasons, such as age, marriage, expenses, etc., this goal has not yet been firm for her.

For young students who are graduating, it is very difficult to make the right choice for the future plan. Principally, no one can guarantee which choice is “correct.” Normal students cannot rely on experience to make decisions, except for a small number of students who have some work or other experience. In addition, people also need to consider the impact of various factors when making a judgement for their future. At this time, interests and ideas become an important support for a firm goal. After all, human always gets answers about life in constant trials. In this way, I am very supportive of the choice of interest.

Happy Talking

I need to especially thank the good friend who asked me to write this diary. Because of the jet lag, I didn’t communicate with her about the idea for self-employment until midnight. What impressed me the most during the conversation was that the improvement of abilities and skills brought about by the work was more significant than the simple study. Of course, we only discuss which way is more conducive to the development of professional capabilities. We also roughly compare the market environment of several countries in different regions and the development of the IT industry. In addition, she helped me solve some of the important or unimportant issues I have encountered recently. Thanks again for her help.

Suggestions for my delimma

Next, I wanna talk about the most serious problem I have met these days and I still did not tackle it well, which is perfectionism. Actually, this is a problem that I have always had, and I have always been aware of the existence of this problem, and I have never thought of a good solution for it.

The reason why I have paid attention to perfectionism until now is that it has brought a particularly adverse impact on my academic life. For example, the content of a course unit in the last semester is quite related to my previous work, so I really want to present many of the situations I met in my previous work in the final essay. But in fact this is a very difficult process of thinking. In the process of writing an essay, I found that the basic knowledge involved in the lectures was not enough to support me to critically evaluate the problems I have encountered before. I need to spend a lot of time reading enough literature to cope with and explain them. I hope that I can make good essays or projects with my own strengths, but it is unrealistic for my current ability to meet my high requirements. So the final results were often much lower than expected, which makes me feel quite depressed.

My friend’s suggestion for this problem is that I should rationally list the tasks that need to be completed during the stage of planning and set reasonable deadlines for each task. In other words, the first and most important step is that I need to focus on the plan. Rationally thinking of the feasibility of the task before setting a goal for yourself, and then make a plan based on the results. I believe this practice should help me if I can do it.

Satisfy my cuorisity

My curiosity refers to the operation patterns and social responsibility of some Internet media companies in China. These are sensitive content.

Making CV

Finally, I would like to figure out how to write a CV for applying for a job. Although I have been working for several years and have had a lot of recruitment experience, I have actually not participated in a job interview for a very long time. Moreover, I would like to know more about the requirements of CVs for large-scale technology companies in China and other countries. Because my friend has had some interviews with world-renowned companies and is currently working for a very famous technology company in China, I believe her suggestions.

If it is used for interviews with domestic companies, the basic structure of the CV is as follows. Basic information; personal summary; work experience, project/programme/portfolio experience; education; skills; personal interests; interests for the company.

As she said, domestic companies seem to focus on the interviewer’s actual work experience, while foreign companies want to know the interviewer’s personal abilities and skills from details. Therefore, if a CV is prepared for the interview of a foreign company, the order of the content may need to be adjusted in the CV, while the above structure should be applicable to all situations. In addition, the interviewer also needs to pay attention to the format and layout of the CV , as well as the number of pages.

Good Night

As you see, this is a very informal diary. I did not talk about the detail of my idea but the thoughts I got today. And now, writing blog frequently is still a tough job for me but I need to try to keep this habit. Have a good night:)

Hello

Hello, this is my personal blog. 

For now, I am a student at the university of Manchester. 

For this blog, I’d like to do three or maybe more than three things:

To translate my previous posts which posted in a very terrible website before into English and post them here.

To continue writing down the knowledge, skills and solutions about programming languages, application design and developing, etc.

To share my experience and thought of my life.

If anyone finds some mistakes from my blog or has some suggestions, please tell me directly. Thanks!

That’s it!